Write it down. Then Start.

You don’t need permission. You just need to start. 

I took some time to write down my goals tonight. I’ve read recently that half of strategy of reaching goals is not to share them publicly. Sure, you need to share your goals with a couple of friends so they can hold you accountable—just sharing with everyone is not a good idea. Interesting.

Big Dreams

Just to warn you. This is a response to a challenge to define what my BIG DREAM was and if I still had it in me to go for it.  If you don’t know my story this may seem a bit odd but here you go. This is the bullet point version with many gaps but it’s a start.

Part I – Us

I am working daily to clarify my BIG DREAM but as of right now it’s making sure our kiddos know they are loved and that they have a solid foundation for life. To find out how to consistently love my wife Myra in the way she needs. We are both so broken it’s tough sometimes. By broken, I mean we have survived excruciating loss. I’ll have to write a book on all that but trust me when I say broken for us is sometimes best described as a black hole. So the first part of my ‘dream’ is to get ‘us’ right. That’s a huge deal.

Part II – Connected 

I would love to start a “connected” community hub that integrates tech/design/new media & a mentor/relationship with real accountability for people who want to step off a path that leads to nowhere onto a path with possibility. Accountability for personal goals but also measurement for real world – real impact goals.

To underline that while we have this awesome time on Earth we also are a part of a larger plan. We were created to love Him and love others. To share His story of sacrifice for us. He could have come to this earth to destroy us… to punish us… which is what we have seemed to do very well on our own. But He chose to send His son to let us know there is a different choice, even in pain, hurt and wounds — we could still choose to love.

Part III – Discovery

I think my dream is to be what I have always wanted. A real encouraging, loving, friend. The issue, for me at least to is being able to look past my own void and actually be just that. Most of the time I am the exact opposite. Especially to those I love the most. Not cool but true.

That’s a start for me. What’s your BIG DREAM?

Fast enough

Bumped into a friend/colleague recently at Sycamores cafe and he asked me how everything was going. I quickly fired back the usual “We are moving at about 200 mph these days – lot’s of excellent stuff going on.” (which is true but probably could mix in a new intro every now and then). We smiled and then began discussing a friend and what a great person this guy was – great heart – passion for making an impact. And then before I could really process what I was saying, I threw out “Yes, and the great thing is he has had as crazy of a life as I have so we actually do not scare each other away.” I usually have not had much sleep when words and thoughts start escaping me with little to zero censorship. He replied “What? The Larry I know has had the last 10 years and the next 20 planned out to the nth degree.”

Just when I think life is leveling out. It always amazes me how caught off guard I am when things simply begin to change. I mean things always seem to change every six months – every year or so since I can remember. I like to think I am pretty flexible, especially after looking back at the last 33 years and seeing all stuff that has happened and how God brought me (us) through it all. He really is in control. I have seen it so many times – I am still caught off guard.

The rough edges are being knocked off right now. I feel like I need to be ready for that next step – even though I am not sure what that is;

– It’s praying for leaders to step-up;
– to recognize them when they do;
– to build people up; to encourage;
– to love my wife and kids more than ever;
– to speak honestly and openly when something is on my heart;
– to challenge myself and those around me to not settle;
– to allow myself to dream and to live a life of vision that only God could have possibly inspired.

God wants to work through us – we just simply need to let him. That’s scary. I am tired (mostly because I am not exercising and it’s 3 hours past usual bedtime) but I think when things start changing rapidly I really get worn out because I am trying to analyze, prepare and react to the million things that are moving around me. Or I simply like to focus on what was accomplished this past season which leads me to think about all the time, hard work and effort it took to make it happen – but then I come around back to the exact moment when I physically got on my knees and surrendered it (whatever it was) to God. Seriously cool thing when this happens. Thank you Kerry for emphasizing how important it is to lead from our knees. What a lesson to learn.

O.k., better now. These thoughts are now burnt pixels on the LCD. Thank you God for your grace and for continually molding us until we are a pure blessing to others and 100% in-line with your will and purpose.